Su

A burden has been lifted from my shoulders. For the past few weeks my life has been a bit nightmarish by my standards. I was dealing with difficult roomies and a difficult boss. Everything was just up in the air and I felt that at some time everything will fall on me. Its a weird feeling. My Inner Circle was there by my side encouraging me, advising me and comforting me. Thanks guys!
During these times Su, my ex-colleague, ex-roomie and friend came to my rescue. Okay maybe that was not her intention and maybe she doesn't even realize it. She came to visit me at the exact time when I actually felt my life sucked more than ever. Work wasn't good either and she knew that better than anyone since she has seen me through it all. During the last week Su got back a part of me that I was slowly letting go of. The part of me which is always enthusiastic about going out, exploring, shopping, eating out, talking crazy, being impulsive.
So yeah thanks Su! and be rest assured even though u live almost 30 kms. from where I am you are going to see a lot of me :D


Peace,
Shaki

Another Crib Session

I don't get it. I really don't get it. I don't get the fact how people can be so weird/annoying/selfish (choose any)!

SO yes this post is a crib session again. I moved in this place about three months ago and I have just been so disturbed here. Really!

It had started with the super-spicy food. I showed my displeasure and the girls just said that they will change this. It used to be weird when Girl 2 used to cook for herself alone. But I ignored that. I thought well maybe she doesn't like my cooking. No biggie! Then when I went to visit PC a girl was there in my room suddenly. So yeah I ignored the fact that I was not even given a chance to meet the girl I had to share my room with. I thought well I shouldn't create a scene. Then this girl I share the room with, "The Stick", one day conveniently moved my stuff around the room, took out all my possessions and put it where she wanted to and also tore my books carton! I lost it that day. Had a big fight. I mean who takes your stuff and re-arranges it without even asking you! Now the other Girls think that the Stick is the victim and I am the evil one. Girl 1 keeps nagging the whole day. She is complaining the whole day about something or the other. Girl 1 thinks its her duty to complain and pass snide comments without ever doing anything even if its not useful herself. Girl 2 is in her own world. The house is not my home and everyday is leading to one more day of discomfort.

I don't know why all these things affect me so much. Maybe because I have never met such people in my whole entire life!! I need to start searching for a new place again because I feel I am not happy anymore and I feel so stressed!

Really need a change.

Peace (sigh)

Shaki

Growing up and growing apart

It’s strange how we all move on. Some because they are caught in their high flying jobs, some just because they get married and have so many other roles to play and some because of physical distances while others just drift away. You can’t blame anyone for it. Circumstances change like the course of a river and we move on. 

Peace

Shaki

Waiting for rain

This is a view from my place.

 

Just couldn't get this straight! forgot to save it seedha! The clouds looked like there was going to be a cyclone!

View from from PC's place.

View from PC's place again! it was just about to rain.

Peace,
Sakhen

I want to experience the rains in Calcutta again!

Today I remember the warm sunlight after the rain in Calcutta. The way the trees showed off its colours, shades of yellow and green. The water clogged in the streets. A warm feeling. I am reminded of the grey blue clouds and the eagles soaring high. Sitting in our jungle-like balcony sipping on hot tea and sometimes samosa along with it. Watching kids run to pick up the freshly fallen mangoes, some ripe and some just about. There would be streams of muddy water running to the drains.

It would rain in the late evenings sometimes. Late evening showers also meant cool breeze and a clear sky later. Smell of tea mixed with fried foods and chaat filled the air.

There are so many things about the rains in Calcutta. As I started writing this so many thoughts came to my mind that I had to stop to control my thoughts. I miss the rains of Calcutta as I knew I would.

Peace

Shaki

Come weekend...

I am so looking forward to this weekend. I am meeting PC after two and a half months! yay! 

One thing is sure that I will get my hug :D 

You know sometimes the distance doesn't matter and sometimes they do too much. We hardly see each other. So, when we meet it's always like the first time we met. Another thing is whenever we meet we want to do so many things and make every moment special. This can lead to loads of planning before we meet and finally we land up doing none of the things we planned or atleast very little of it!  This time we might live through the day we "met" by going to the railway station and drinking a gazillion cups of chai. Of course it might not be the same but it's going to be fun I am sure. 

Looking forward to an extremely enjoyable weekend :D

Peace
Shaki

Jadoo ki Jappi..

I need a hug. It was so easy to hug and get hugged in return. Not too good at PDAs I would smile and look expectantly at my sisters who would just give me a tight hug for no reason at all. In school and college friends hugged to rejoice and sometimes in pain. I never ran out of hugs. Feeling depressed? Just go lean over, and your family and friends would be more than happy to oblige. They would hug and make all the fear, insecurities, pain disappear or would fill my heart with so much warmth that I would feel its about to burst. I miss hugs that make me feel that everything is alright.

Hugs,
Shaki