Saturday, June 27, 2009

Emotional June

Well, learnt a lesson or two.. first dont lie when you know you will get caught eventually and dont do what you dont expect others not to do. So yeah, over the past few weeks realized that there is no point in hiding things but keep the not hiding part with respect to yourself only.
Its been crazy, this month. Have been going through so many emotions all at the same time. Happiness, anxiety, frustration, anger, love... And the thing is that all these events were happening simulatenously. More or less the days would go like this. In the morning I would be sober and determined. By afternoon just a bit flustered. Evening would be frustrating with me spitting fire. By the time I reached home I would be back to being hyper in a good way, excited and super happy. Yes, now comes the part which completely made me crazy. In between the frustrating, angry moments there would be this one call or mail that would make me get up on my feet and say "Well, Bring it on" or make me feel like a princess. And then when I was feeling a bit happy or warm inside I would suddenly remember how things are'nt like what they seem to be and then that would get me back to being grumpy. Now, considering this I wouldnt blame people around to think that I am going nuts because within minutes I would be swinging from being extremely grumpy to smiling like the Cheshire Cat. I do pity people who were in contact with me at those times.
Looking forward to the next month now. But I have a feeling it's going to be more or less like this month. Cross my fingers now!