Reflection I

Its been some time here now. Having my first cup of tea in the morning I was reflecting on what all has happened in the past year. I guess its got to do with this time of the year. You start getting into the reflecto mood.
This city has not grown on me as I thought it would. Yes I got used to it. But I haven't quite become fond of it. Its like when I moved to Pune after college I was so apprehensive about meeting new people and making friends. I thought that I would never make friends. And voila! a couple of months later I had a fully packed social calendar with people I actually liked to hang out with! I was hoping for a similar effect here. Sadly it hasn't happened yet. I don't like the fact that I have to leave by 7 30 AM for work or else I will be stuck in traffic for almost two hours. I don't like the traffic. I am unable to understand the psyche of the people at work! I am not liking the food. The price of everything seems super-enhanced like the product itself. I haven't been able to go to the so called older part of town which supposedly is better because its too far. I might have to plan a whole day for that sorta thing. Which means getting stuck in traffic, dust and pollution. The malls are bursting at the seams! Heck, you don't feel like going to shop because of the crowd and it takes hours at the billing counter. Movie going is no more fun. The best part of the city is the weather. And that's about the only thing I can think of right now.
I don't know if its me whining or do other people feel the same? When will I start accepting/liking this city?

Peace
Shaki

Smoke in the Forest

Well... not really. Went for a walk to Cubbon Park, Bangalore in the morning. The plan was to reach by 7 AM but we kinda landed there at 9 30 AM. It was a quiet morning but got super busy very soon. Before we knew it the whole place was super crowded!

Here are a few pictures of that day.

Waiting for PC to come back so that we can go for many more!

Peace,

Shaki

Bad Hair Days

Right now I have Helmet Hair. I am having bad hair days. Whatever I do to it, it just comes down to the same old. After a wash I pretty much look like I belong to the 70s, if you know what I mean. Oh yeah, so Helmet Hair is basically when you wear a helmet throughout the week and your hair looks like its been ironed from the top only and the rest of the hair just sits there limp. Its not so pretty. So I was just thinking, a good hairdo does a lot to your image. I mean when I look at myself with the bad hair I feel awful. And then there are days when I get a haircut and feel and look super duper cool. A good hair day means a good day, heck a good Week!
Anywhooo, I guess its time to chop the hair. Get some snazzy haircut. Maybe that will make the Helmet Hair look a little less awful then what it is! My Hair needs some TLC.

Peace
Shaki

Morbid Thoughts

Was watching Grey's Anatomy last night. One of the main character was on the deathbed. She meets with an accident and is rushed to the Hospital. And her friends have to operate/look after her. The whole episode is a musical. Every character sings its part about life and deeds. Its very moving. Didn't see the whole episode because I got pretty welled up. Had a hearty meal and then went to sleep. Dreamt that I saw someone being shot while i was in a car. I got up because in my dream the same sequence was happening again. Scary.
So yeah. Ever since I have started riding, I get these thoughts like what would I do if a truck ran over me. There wouldn't be much I would be able to do, I guess. But sometimes I wonder like the way they show in movies will I actually see myself dying? or see my whole life flash in front of my eyes? or will I say "Oh Shit" instead of "God"? and what if my limbs are injured and I cant move? who will I call? will I faint? It'll be so scary dying on the road with no one you love around you. Scared and helpless and regretful, maybe.
Almost everything in the above para is something I don't want to experience or have others experience. But I wonder sometime.

Peace,
Shaki

Touchie Topic

Its been a while. I have been on a guilt trip. Reason: I haven't been in touch with my friends for like ever. I know I should. Of course I should. I get all these forwards about how important friends are and how you should keep in touch.  And I almost every time resolve that I will keep in touch. But when it comes to implementing it, I suck at it.
No reason is good enough to be out of touch. Distance or whatever.
Today I realized and kinda started counting the things that I have missed with my friends. A friend gave birth to a baby boy and I didn't even call her! Of course, I got to know today but I knew she was expecting. I might have missed a few birthdays and anniversaries. I really am a terrible friend.
The calls that I say or the other says lands up being never made. The meetings never happen. The trips never materialize. And life just goes on.
I do think I am blessed. My friends keep in touch and are forgiving! Can't take it for granted though.

So today (again) I resolve to stay in touch and be the one to call.

Peace,
Shaki

Rose

As I was uploading these pictures I remembered this song by Bety Midler. I had started off writing something else but couldnt't help but put the lyrics of this song.

The Rose
Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razer
that leaves your soul to blead

Some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of wakingthat never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dyingthat never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winterfar beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed
that with the sun's love
in the spring
becomes the rose

Peace,
Shaki

Holika

These pictures were taken more than a month back. This was during Holika. Everyone around this locality had gathered and it was a full moon nigh (The Super Moon Night). The ladies were going around the fire, praying. This was the first time I saw other communities other than people from this place, coming out and bonding. It was good to be there :)

Peace,
Shaki

I need to do Something.

Oh Well.. Its been a long time. Ever since I have been working I feel I haven't been able to give time to myself or do anything that excites me. As in, you know ,I don't post anything, that's one thing for sure. But other than that I am so caught up in working, trying to spend as much time with PC, cooking and all that, that I feel I don't do anything exciting or out of impulse.

I mean there were days in Pune when I could just get out of the house go to a mall and randomly pick up stuff or nothing at all! But just do anything. I would randomly go out with the Girls for a movie, dinner and drinks or spend time at the beauty parlour or just pig out. I know I know, I can do that now too... but I guess it's this City. No offence. But then to get to any of the "happening" places I need to schedule it out, get time and people together and then work out the logistics! And no I definitely can't do it on any weekday, it has to be a weekend. I can't randomly ask everyone to drop whatever they are doing and go out with me! After so many things to think about who wants to go out anyway. And with all that the laziness just piles up too.

Do I regret moving here? No way.

But I feel very dependent now and that's something I don't like. So have to think of ways to give time to me and do things for me. I need to loosen up, let my hair down. I need do just do random stuff and get rid of the lazy me.

I think I am going to get a massage :)

Peace

Shaki

(After writing this, I think I miss my friends more)

Baharon Phool Barsao!

 

Flowers brighten up my day :)

Peace,

Shaki