Crib Crib...

I am at a stage where I feel a lot of things are just not working out the way I want it to. Of course, there are a lot of things that are going quite alright. I mean okay so I am on a search for a roommate as I am not able to bear the rent all by myself today, but my bai is being kind enough to tell me that I can pay her salary aaram se. This makes me feel more pathetic actually. Am in a good mind to do all the chores myself had it not been for my thumb which is prone to getting bald. That’s a long story by itself. I am searching for a job in Bangalore while there are so many here!

I am weighing the pros and cons. Should I shift to a new place which is cheaper? I know that for lower rent I need to move out to some other locality faaaar faaaar away which doesn’t quite excite me that much. If I stay in the same locality where I am staying now I wont get a house big enough to accommodate all my things including Tamdi’s furniture plus the rent might be crazy anyways. My phone is acting up. People call me and it cuts by itself without registering the number. So I don’t know who all have called! Which also means that if I am getting any calls from prospective employers/consultants/roomies I don’t know!!! But I can’t afford a new phone now.  I am going crazy with the amount of calls I get (in case it reaches me) about my ad in the websites of various renting sites. A lot of people don’t know how to read so they start off with "you should write that it is for working women" and "you should mention it is on sharing basis" and that I am wasting their time. Some are irritating enough to not even listen to me when I say "please read the full description in the ad". One of the girls who had called was screaming her guts out at me and not listening to what I said. I told her “I know you must be frustrated hunting for a flat but its no reason to shout at someone for your own fault of not reading the ads properly”. She said sorry. But there have been those irritating people who just won’t listen and think that they are right. I pity them. But sometimes it’s just bugging hearing someone screaming on the other side when you are not even at fault. 

I don’t know what I am doing! I know I have gone through the whole “you can do it” and “you will get a solution” n the psyching myself that I can make it happen bit but right now I just want to crib about it. Let it out! I am trying very hard to be positive but with the funds going low and my patience getting even worse it’s difficult to stay positive. But Ng says if there is a bad phase it is followed by a good phase and if things are not working out now there is something much better lurking behind. Lets hope so.

Peace (i hope)

Shaki

Happy New Year!

This year is coming to an end and so is the decade. Moving to the New Year with some hopes and dreams. Wishing the best of everything for my loved ones.

Peace
Shaki

Heart

drew this today on Paint ..

Strawberry.

I don't know whether I am missing her but I am remebering The Wise One's reactions, the joy she brought to The Wise One and to The Big Guy's life for those few months, The Wise One's reactions everytime she went to the Doc, Her voice filled with happiness and The Big Man's plans each time. It had been wonderful!

Strawberry, God Bless You, wherever You are!

Peace,

Shaki (Maasi)

How do you help?

Yes. Yes. I have started writing more regularly... Its just that I think this is serving as a good outlet for me. Yesterday's worries are still there somewhere at the back of my mind. Anyways, today there are some weird thoughts. When PC told me about a friend going through a rough spot, there were the usual things running in my mind when someone tells me about there problems or as in this case about others problems. I land up saying things like "don't worry.. you/they will get through it.. you/they need to be patient... i know its tough..." But as i started typing something on those lines I thought if I were in their place how would I feel... I mean everyone knows things dont last forever and everyone knows not to worry and so the words above aren't always welcome. So I tried my best. After the usual I asked if I could help. Though PC might not really need my help in this case I still asked. You never know! It got me thinking about how easy it is for me or for that matter anyone else to say consoling words or words to encourage but then the person who is at the receiving end usually feels the same as he/she did before. So unless you can help dont offer any consoling words.  It's like talking to a Wall! Your presence will matter more than your words thats for sure! These are just my thoughts for today. Might change tomorrow. But then don't tell me that cause you can't help that!

Peace
Shaki

The London Series- After Effects

Gotcha! No. No. This is not part of my London Series.. Ha! Ha! Ha! Its just me ranting. Here I am. Back from an amazing holiday. And all I get back to are worries. You know the moment I landed here I had a million worries. I was wondering how to get a cab, will I get home on time, will I get the bus back, will Anjudi remember to pick me up, the house must be dirty, will the Bai come, I have a million bills to pay, I have to go to office the next day, I am hungry, I am sleepy, I am awake, I need to bathe.. You get the drift.
So. this series of worrying just doesn't stop... Today I am sitting here and thinking God! give me a break! I am desperately searching for a room mate. I am fed up with the way The Grinch treats me! I can't wake up in the morning till the Bai comes. God forbid, one day if she doesn't turn up, I will be sleeping the whole day! I am trying hard to save some money and cut a few expenses. Trying to lose all that lard I have accumulated around my middle region. And I am a bit lonely. I want to have all my family and friends around. Yes ALL of them! And I want to go to Bangalore right now. But I am sitting here typing this! Uff!

Really. I want to move.

Peace (You wish)
Ranting Maniac Shaki

The London Series- Food Glorious Food!

Aaaaaaaah.. now this is the best part. it was a gastronomical adventure! And Boy! Did I miss some people who would have appreciated the food and enjoyed it as much as I did! To start with I had home made Manipuri khaana by Ma which included kangshoi and iromba. Mouth watering.. slurp slurp.. Then the amazing Bengali specialties, kosha mangsho and the chodchodi cooked by Tamdi. Slurrrrp.. Tamdi has proved herself to be one heck of a cook!  Gjjee showed his cooking skills by cooking delicious kali dal one day :) Dipali Di had cooked some awesome Biryani.. it was finger licking good.. so good that I am considering her to cater for my wedding ;). Slurrrp… how can I forget the food at Tamdi and her college gang’s reunion- roast chicken, sun dried tomato, garlic and red pepper pasta, yummy ratatouille (cooked by Joyoni Di). It was the first time I tasted ratatouille and its set some standards. All the people who cook ratatouille, please be assured your dish will always be compared to Joyoni Di’s. It was simply delicious.

Besides the above we did eat out. We had different cuisines ranging from Indian, Italian, Thai, Japanese, Chinese, German, American food (that was just a hot dog) to of course the English food of course. The only thing I didn’t eat was fat round big prawns that looked like the intestines of a human! Of course it was delicious but the sight wasn’t so good. I kinda got nauseous. In normal circumstances I would not have let go of those prawns!! Don’t think I missed much though. Yes. I hogged all throughout the stay. Didn’t lose any chance to eat out. I have a completely different outlook about food from different regions now. And when I go to these places which say they serve food from the above mentioned places I am so gonna judge them!

Other than that I Loved the mulled wine at the Winter Wonderland at Hyde Park. Yes it was the first time I tasted it! It was nice and warm and sweet. I am so hunting for a place where you get mulled wine here. So I did drink a lot of wine generally and I think now that I am a Wine Person. Okay for the time being I am!

If you have read my previous post, you will know that I was a bit awestruck by everything around. This of course includes the vegetables as well. Mom, Dad and I were completely taken aback by the variety of vegetables available. We wanted to buy everything which was of course not such a good idea considering the fact that we would not have been able to eat many of them or just not be able to finish it! There were so many things that we had not seen before. And we took loads of snaps of vegetables we dont get back home. Funny thing to do, i know! 

And I toast to all those people who make food so enjoyable!

Peace

Overweight Shaki