Crib Crib...

I am at a stage where I feel a lot of things are just not working out the way I want it to. Of course, there are a lot of things that are going quite alright. I mean okay so I am on a search for a roommate as I am not able to bear the rent all by myself today, but my bai is being kind enough to tell me that I can pay her salary aaram se. This makes me feel more pathetic actually. Am in a good mind to do all the chores myself had it not been for my thumb which is prone to getting bald. That’s a long story by itself. I am searching for a job in Bangalore while there are so many here!

I am weighing the pros and cons. Should I shift to a new place which is cheaper? I know that for lower rent I need to move out to some other locality faaaar faaaar away which doesn’t quite excite me that much. If I stay in the same locality where I am staying now I wont get a house big enough to accommodate all my things including Tamdi’s furniture plus the rent might be crazy anyways. My phone is acting up. People call me and it cuts by itself without registering the number. So I don’t know who all have called! Which also means that if I am getting any calls from prospective employers/consultants/roomies I don’t know!!! But I can’t afford a new phone now.  I am going crazy with the amount of calls I get (in case it reaches me) about my ad in the websites of various renting sites. A lot of people don’t know how to read so they start off with "you should write that it is for working women" and "you should mention it is on sharing basis" and that I am wasting their time. Some are irritating enough to not even listen to me when I say "please read the full description in the ad". One of the girls who had called was screaming her guts out at me and not listening to what I said. I told her “I know you must be frustrated hunting for a flat but its no reason to shout at someone for your own fault of not reading the ads properly”. She said sorry. But there have been those irritating people who just won’t listen and think that they are right. I pity them. But sometimes it’s just bugging hearing someone screaming on the other side when you are not even at fault. 

I don’t know what I am doing! I know I have gone through the whole “you can do it” and “you will get a solution” n the psyching myself that I can make it happen bit but right now I just want to crib about it. Let it out! I am trying very hard to be positive but with the funds going low and my patience getting even worse it’s difficult to stay positive. But Ng says if there is a bad phase it is followed by a good phase and if things are not working out now there is something much better lurking behind. Lets hope so.

Peace (i hope)

Shaki